So I heard you've been talking shit about me on LJ. Good thing I have friends to tell me these things even when you don't have the balls to tell me about this shit yourself.

Since I know you probably read this, why don't you come and play in my playground? Here's what I have to say to you. Since I can't technically see the post you so graciously added to your "friends only" list, and I'm no longer on it, this is what I was going to post.

Respond how you will, you two-timing bitch. I'm done with you.

--------

Not worth your friendship?

Okay, this got me. Let me give you a little primer on the kinds of things friends do for each other.

Friends open a ONE BEDROOM basement apartment to a NEAR STRANGER who is lost and in need of a new perspective on life.

Friends tell other friends when they probably shouldn't be spending $364 a month on a brand new car, even if those friends want a new one "for the warranty" and the friend dispensing the advice offers to help them FIX the older car so that they can buy that one instead. Those friends also spend hours with them at the dealership because they never bought a car before and needed the help.

Friends lend you money to get started so you at least have a bed in your new place, and then forgive said debt for an old iPod.

Friends tell someone when they're screwing things up, when they're not pulling their weight.

Friends call upon their other friends to help them out when their computer has a meltdown and even give you a hard drive to back up the new one on. Those friends also offer excuses to their other friends as to why they haven't been paid back for the parts to fix the computer.

Friends pay the grocery bill for months on end when their friends can't feed themselves, even when those friends are busy buying $90 dollar boots and $75 dollar limited-run art sets and manga magazines.

Friends let friends move out before a lease is over so they don't have to pay rent all summer.

So, even though this friend isn't worth your friendship, remember what this friend did for you.

And, for the record, my phone got shut off. By the time I could get it turned back on, I needed a new number. But, since I'm not worth your friendship, I'm not going to bother giving it to you.

Tags: iron mouse, read this
Current Mood: bitchy

Well, things with Ryan didn't exactly go as planned. it's been about 2 days since I heard from him last - and considering the circumstances, I'm not sure if I'm going to hear from again.

I really, really, really liked Ryan. I could be completely myself around him, and the real me is a total DORK....things were going so great. I liked him, his personality, his face, eyes, body, everything, the whole shebang. Only on Tuesday night, he told me he loved me.

My reaction to that was less than satisfactory...I said I thought it was a little bit too early for me to say the same. Everything seemed okay, even when I took him back to work in the morning - he gave me a couple kisses good bye. I knew he would be tired so I didn't think much of not getting a call from him Wednesday night, but Thursday morning the worry started creeping in.

It's now technically Friday morning, and beyond what I'd consider an acceptable amount of time for being "busy", or "tired"; now the worry is REALLY out of control and I could not sleep all day today before going into work. All I want at this point is for him to call me and tell me everything is all right, though I'm not sure if I'm ever going to see it.

I really, really cared about him, and I'm afraid I've hurt him to the point where he no longer wants anything to do with me. I wonder what would have happened if I had reciprocated...

I'm a little confused because not too far earlier, we were talking about what we were going to make our "anniversary" as well as going to Portland to see my friend Rachel....

I just don't know.

Tags: dating
Current Mood: crushed

  So things with J didn't exactly pan out...no emails, no phone calls, and no text messages have been exchanged between us for the past two weeks.

    I had made the decision to just give it up and start enjoying being single and decided, what the hell - I'll give Craigslist one more try. I mean, it certainly couldn't hurt to just not bother responding to people that didn't tickle my fancy.

    Imagine my surprise when I got a response, one that was super thoughtful and told me a lot about who I was dealing with....I was getting ready to go to work so I told him to text me while I was at work. We talked all night at work by text message and I decided to meet him in the morning for breakfast before school.

    Well, breakfast turned into lunch, dinner, and that night, just talking, enjoying each other's company, and naturally making out. (haha).

    I feel absolutely amazing with this guy - I can be completely myself (and the real me is the ultimate dork) around him. He loves my body and my curves and thinks I am H-O-T (so cool), and we have so many things we can talk about. We're both goal minded (I'm going to nursing school, he's working on his PhD in organic chemistry) and busy. He has a job in a research internship and OMG a car that works!!!! (Imagine that.) He seems to have pretty high standards for himself, just like I do for me, which is definitely good.

    Most importantly though, I can see myself with this guy long term...and he is the kind of guy I wouldn't mind taking home to my mother for sure.

    So I guess what that means is I'm changing my status to "In a Relationship" for now. We'll see how things turn out, but it sure looks good from here.

 ----------------------------

On a completely unrelated note, I am done moving everything out of my sublease and this will probably be the last night I have internet access on demand for the next month. So, if you want to get a hold of me, call my cell or get a hold of me on my mobile AIM (xaeroliciousx) and if I know who the heck you are I'll give you my cell phone number there.



Thanks!!!

Amber

Current Mood: smitten